This week certainly has been interesting!
Monday started out not-so-great. Refer to entry # 1. However, I have been diligent in my efforts to stay positive and read as instructed. I’ve only missed about 4 readings total, out of approximately 30+ readings for the week. Unfortunately, in my exhaustion, I have let my old blueprint win, but only a handful of times.
I can honestly say, I didn’t think it would be such a struggle between my old and new blueprint. Granted, I have a pretty great start – time, maturity, and wisdom from my sister have helped me get into a better headspace in the last year. I know part of her affect on my is due to her taking MKMMA last year. She had such excitement and faith – and would pass that along to me. However, I know I deserve some credit, too.
I am excited to find out what my Guide said about my DMP, and to continue working on it so I can keep shouting my desires and declarations to the Universe!
This morning, I woke up late for work. My old blueprint is used to me being late to work – and I’ve spent 3.5 months at this new job and haven’t been late once. Until this morning. Ugh. Then I had to rush to get ready, missed my morning reading, etc. Everyone is telling me “Life happens”. However, I felt so much better when:
I was sitting at a stop light, and 311’s “Amber” came on the radio. The song is incredibly soothing, but I wasn’t listening to it, as I was paying attention to traffic and my gaze wandered. All of a sudden, I heard these lyrics in my foggy head:
“don’t give up your independence
unless it feels so right
nothing good comes easily
sometimes you gotta fight”
I DO gotta fight. Thank you, 311. I have to fight my old blueprint. I have to fight my old thinking. My old ways. They are OLD and I am washed anew! I felt so much better after hearing those lyrics.