MKMMA – Week 22a – Out of the Silence, and into The Light

My silence certainly didn’t last long. I allowed many distractions to get in my way. I even cancelled my Monday off of work that I had originally intended, because of my feeling of defeat. Most important, though, I know I’m capable of not checking my phone, and not feeling helpless without a mode of communication. It was a VERY cold weekend, so my first day of being IN NATURE and SURROUNDED ended after three  and a half hours. However, the three and a half hours felt like 1, so when I learned I made it 3.5 – I celebrated!

Disappointed, but anxious for another try. As soon as this weather clears up (thank you, unpredictable Kentucky!), I am excited to follow my original idea of camping for a weekend – just me and nature. I am capable of fending for myself, and am anxious to prove to myself that I can appreciate the silence.

Speaking of that Silence – Fellow WordPress MKMMA’er Wes    ( @WesMasterKey ) posted one of my favorite songs that has gained some popularity with an updated cover by an unlikely band.

Disturbed has another song that is speaking volumes to me at the moment, called The Light.

Please – take some time to really think about these lyrics. Listen to the song. Ignore any preconceived notions you may have about “their genre” of music.

Like an unsung melody
The truth is waiting there for you to find it
It’s not a blight, but a remedy,
A clear reminder of how it began
Deep inside your memory
Turned away as you struggled to find it
You heard the call as you walked away
A voice of calm from within the silence
And for what seemed an eternity
You wait and hoping it would call out again
You heard the shadow beckoning
Then your fears seemed to keep you blinded
You held your guard as you walked away

When you think all is forsaken,
Listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

An unforgivable tragedy
The answer isn’t where you think you’d find it
Prepare yourself for the reckoning
For when your world seems to crumble again
Don’t be afraid, don’t turn away
You’re the one who can redefine it
Don’t let hope become a memory
Let the shadow permeate your mind and
Reveal the thoughts that were tucked away
So that the door can be opened again
Within your darkest memories
Lies the answer if you dare to find it
Don’t let hope become a memory

When you think all is forsaken,
Listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

Sickening, weakening
Don’t let another somber pariah consume your soul
You need strengthening, toughening
It takes an inner dark to rekindle the fire burning in you
Ignite the fire within you

When you think all is forsaken,
Listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

Don’t ignore, listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness
Can show you the light

Wow. Yeah? Yeah.


MKMMA Week 22 – Into the Silence (Post 2)


Into Nature – Into the Silence – I go!

The plan is at this moment, undefined. While trying to fall asleep last night, I had this marvelous idea to go CAMPING this weekend. In a tent. By myself. How much more nature-y could I get? However, the paycheck wasn’t enough to cover campground rental as an unexpected expense, so I am just going to go… go and enjoy myself in different nature locations, and come home at night. Not talking to B or my cats is going to be difficult. Sometimes, I just cannot shut up. 🙂

Thankfully, there are a few state parks within a 30-minute drive, so my options are many! How many of you will be practicing your silence this weekend? I’m interest to hear how you’re managing your life and work around this. I had to schedule it for 6pm today, when I am off work, through Monday at 1pm. Any suggestions? Helpful hints?

T-minus three hours.

MKMMA – Sunday Thoughts (Week 22)


I had a thought earlier today: I’m missing the forest for the trees.  This is HUGE.

I may have realized that I’m going to be an astronaut, but there’s a very significant part of the journey that needs equal attention and visualization: Becoming a Mechanical Engineer.

I’ve heard horror stories about the program itself, as well as the probability of being employed upon graduation (over-saturated market, etc.) – but I’ve decided Mechanical Engineering is the best fit for me. This will require a lot of math, and a lot of science. I should focus on being an astronaut, yes, but when I’m an amazing contender for astronaut candidacy, I have to be able to look the interviewers in the eyes with confidence in my skills as a Mechanical Engineer.

Please, for the love of all things holy – don’t miss the forest for the trees!


MKMMA – Week 21 – Big!


The Master Key – Part Twenty-One

It is my privilege to enclose Part Twenty-One. In paragraph 7 you will find that one of the secrets of success, one of the methods of organizing victory, one of the accomplishments of the Master Mind is to think big thoughts.

Check, check, annnnnnnnd CHECK! Being an astronaut is a 0.21% chance. You have better luck of winning the lottery than making it through the Astronaut Candidate selection process. This year (2015-2016), NASA set a record for the most submissions ever received (thanks, I’m sure, to Interstellar and The Martian!) at over EIGHTEEN THOUSAND! And that 0.21% chance was out of over 6000 candidates… can’t wait to see the math on over 18,000!

But according to Part Twenty-One… BIG thoughts!


Revisiting this on 02/26/2016

Do you remember a long time ago when we were all concerned with how to respond to seemingly negative criticisms of our dreams? Well, I didn’t share mine with anyone (other than my lovely MKMMA Guide!). Now, I’m kinda glad I didn’t, because it would have sounded silly. But at the same time, I lost out on any support I could have gained from being open and vulnerable with my friends and family. HOWEVER.

My ex-boyfriend/friend/long-time bestie/roommate (it’s complicated, hah) finally told me how he really felt about my pursuit of being an astronaut. He’s worried I’m going to fail. He’s worried I’m too overzealous about something I may not be able to handle. He’s worried I’m choosing to chase yet another dream, just to get bogged down with being “too busy” and get overwhelmed……… and quit.

Forgetting the fact that he’s right about a couple of things (I get overwhelmed sometimes) – the old blueprint would have immediately risen to defense. I am proud of myself and my level of calm and awareness that has developed throughout MKMMA because I just said “Thank you. I love you for being honest with me, and for caring about me and loving me as you do.” He just looked SO RELIEVED. He apparently had been dreading telling me how he felt for over 2 weeks! And here’s the thing with him – he doesn’t talk. Like, ever. He just “doesn’t have anything to say” (his words), no matter how often I beg him to talk to me, with me, or even in my general direction. I meant it when I said “I love that you care about me, and I’m so lucky to have someone who does!” And I wanted to cry.

Often, my way of doing what I’m going to do is “in defiance” of someone. Like I constantly have something to prove to other people. If you don’t support me, that’s cool. But if you tell me I can’t do something, then I choose to prove you wrong… but often lose my gusto because I’m not doing it for the right reasons. That’s why my first bachelor’s degree took forever. I didn’t have any direction, and I was only continuing college in defiance of She-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named. She told me to take a year off between high school and college. Nope. She told me I’d never finish. Nope. She kicked me out when I graduated high school, so why would I do what she suggested or told me to do? Ugh. Anyways. Learning experiences, right?


19. There is no limit to what this law can do for you; dare to believe in your own idea; remember that Nature is plastic to the ideal; think of the ideal as an already accomplished fact.

The Master Key Master Mind Alliance is no fool! I mean, c’mon. Since DAY ONE they have been advising and guiding us to SEE ourselves as we’ve already accomplished these things. OWN IT. Truly take the time to develop it. That friggin’ old blueprint of mine, man, I’ve allowed to hold me back from so many awesome things. Forget the probability of becoming an astronaut… I’m a freaking astronaut, baby! I mean, really! I put up a picture (this one!)  funny.pho.to_astronautof myself as an astronaut here at work. My coworkers (those lovely ladies from my previous blog post) laugh a time or two at it, but they support me no matter WHAT I need to do – if I don’t get to work with them anymore, they completely understand and want to see me succeed in my dream. And I will! I AM an astronaut! 🙂

Now, I need to figure out how I’m going to apply astronaut and mechanical engineering superpowers to help others.



MKMMA – Week 20- I can see myself!



I can see myself! Can you see me?


I can FINALLY see myself. It’s as if a huge fog has been lifted. What was I pretending not to know? I was pretending not to know the real me, my real desires, my real hopes and aspirations. I was pretending to hide behind common misconceptions about women and science, and more specifically “She-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named” and my capabilities, or “lack thereof” according to her.  I was pretending not to know that it would kill me if I didn’t at least give this dream its moment in the sun.

Part Twenty of the Master Keys:

3. All great things come through recognition; the scepter of power is consciousness, and thought is its messenger, and this messenger is constantly molding the realities of the invisible world into the conditions and environments of your objective world.

I RECOGNIZE that I am capable. I RECOGNIZE that I thrive in my childhood dream!

14. To become inspired means to get out of the beaten path, out of the rut, because extraordinary results require extraordinary means. When we come into a recognition of the Unity of all things and that the source of all power is within, we tap the source of inspiration. 

31. Paraphrased: In him we live and move and have our being’ You ARE because HE IS!
31. For your exercise this week, go into the Silence and concentrate on the fact that “In him we live and move and have our being” is literally and scientifically exact! That you ARE because He IS, that if He is Omnipresent He must be in you. That if He is all in all you must be in Him! That He is Spirit and you are made in “His image and likeness” and that the only difference between His spirit and your spirit is one of degree, that a part must be the same in kind and quality as the whole. When  you can realize this clearly you will have found the secret of the creative power of thought, you will have found the origin of both good and evil, you will have found the secret of the wonderful power of concentration, you will have found the key to the solution of every problem whether physical, financial, or environmental. 

Whew. What comfort there!

MKMMA – Week 19 – Back to our regularly scheduled programming…




How was your week off? How about Valentine’s? Ya know, “EVERY DAY should be Valentine’s Day…” blah blah blah. haha. How about President’s Day? How does one celebrate President’s Day, anyways?….

Announcing my intentions to the world (Read: Facebook) and telling my coworkers was not nearly as scary as I had imagined. Go figure, it takes more energy to be fearful than to be brave! Cue music by Sara Bareilles…

Brave – Music Video

I cannot tell you HOW FREEING it is to finally FEEL authentic. It is sad that my “first” DMP was so forced… like yeah, I want these things, but do I FEEL they’re real? Nope. The rewrite I’ve got going on right now (write now?) is way better… but that is life! You live, you learn, you GROW! I’m all over the place right now because that song is just so motivating, it makes me want to get up and DANCE! Oh, and sing. And tell others the value of being their authentic selves! So free.

I have to mention, how people can surprise you (!) when you are authentic, as well. I had several friends share resources with me this week regarding NASA, space, and art, and, well… I was (am) so grateful and overwhelmed by the support I receive in shared resources.

Oh my goodness. Yet again, how apropos thou art, Master Keys!

Part Nineteen –
“Fear is a powerful form of thought. It paralyzes the nerve centers, thus affecting the circulation of the blood.

This, in turn, paralyzes the muscular system, so that fear affects the entire being, body, brain and nerve, physical, mental, and muscular.

Of course the way to overcome fear is to become conscious of power. What is this mysterious vital force which we call power? We do not know, but then, neither do we know what electricity is.”

“1. The search for truth is no longer a haphazard adventure, but it is a systematic process, and is logical in its operation. Every kind of experience is given a voice in shaping its decision.”



merida brave

MKMMA Week 18 – BOOM

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“In order to grow we must obtain what is necessary for our growth. This is brought about through the law of attraction. This principle is the sole means by which the individual is differentiated from the Universal.”    — The Master Key – Part Eighteen

This part of the Master Keys speaks volumes to me, at this moment in my life, for many reasons. It describes:

19. A man would not expect to locate stars hundreds of millions of miles away without a sufficiently strong telescope, and for this reason Science is continually engaged in building larger and more powerful telescopes and is continually rewarded by additional knowledge of the heavenly bodies.

AS I TYPE THIS, music from the Interstellar soundtrack comes on to my Pandora M83 station. Coincidence? Nah.

20. So with understanding; men are continually making progress in the methods which they use to come into communication with the Universal Mind and it’s infinite possibilities.

Yes, yes, yes. Throughout the Master Keys, my understanding has increased of the Universal Mind, and the ability to change GREATLY the world without, by changing the world within.

I believe the Master Keys have helped me:

32. The incentive of attention is interest; the greater the interest, the greater the attention; the greater the attention, the greater the interest, action and reaction; begin by paying attention; before long you will have aroused interest; this interest will attract more attention, and this attention will produce more interest, and so on. This practice will enable you to cultivate the power of attention.

BOOM. THIS WEEK OF ALL WEEKS is when Week 18, Part 18 hits. This is the week that I renewed my interest, my long-lost love affair with space, heavenly bodies, exploration, and the like. Interest -> Attention, Attention -> Interest… and it goes on and on. This practice will enable you to cultivate the power of attention… heck yeah it does!

Week 18 is also the week of the Super Bowl. We didn’t have class of course, because: Super Bowl. Although not heavily invested in the game, I did agree to go to a watch party. Like most, I went to watch the commercials. Super Bowl advertising is legen….wait for it…. dary.

Well, the NUDGE from the Universe I received MADE ME CRY IN FRONT OF STRANGERS! Haha. We all know the commercial…David Bowie left us too soon. As a tribute to Bowie, Audi’s latest commercial “The Commander” featured his song “Starman”… Watch it here:

Just… talk about SIGNS. When you start to follow your heart, you get these little nudges or confirmation from the Universe, or at least that’s how I choose to describe it.


17A – The Hero’s Journey

February 3rd, I announced to my Facebook family that I am becoming an astronaut. I received so much love and support from that “community”, and apparently I inspired a few people to look into their own possibilities with school. THAT is cool. 🙂 On February 5th, I asked if my little Facebook community would help me with scholarships if need be through social media… and received a resounding YES! It felt good to know I had so MUCH support from all of these folks!

Aimee’s TED talk (link below) really struck a chord with me. When I am an astronaut, I need to use my superpowers for the good of humanity. I can combine something I love (helping people) with something else I love (space)… but I haven’t yet discovered that part of my path. “We’ve unlearned the magic of discovery…”
I finally found mine again! ANSWER THE CALL!

Aimee Mann’s My 12 Pairs of Legs:

Is an opportunity to help others and be an astronaut worth dying? Think about this. Is it worth MY OLD BLUEPRINT DYING? Heck to the yes! Consider yourself a phoenix – death is necessary for rebirth to occur.

“You want change without sacrifice? The world doesn’t work like that.” – David from the The Divergent Series: Allegiant Official TV Spot – “A Better Life” (

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MKMMA Week 17



“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” — Einstein

I cannot express just how true the above sentiment is. This week, I dropped Facebook like a sack of potatoes. It’s probably not forever, but I am focusing on being PRESENT more in my daily life than present in social media. So far, so good! I focused more on my coursework and in-person relationships, stayed busy at work, and just generally tried to not allow social media withdrawals in my life… hahaha.

The week and a half I spent off of Facebook was one of the BEST decisions I’d ever made. I’ve dropped Fb before, but never for more than a few days at a time. I used this extra time to catch up on some movies I’ve been meaning to watch – and it has changed my life.

I finally watched Interstellar. If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend to give it a shot. This movie is PHENOMENAL. There are some who say otherwise, and that’s perfectly fine. This movie has changed my life, my path. All with one simple decision to give up something that was so clearly holding me back from doing the thing(s) I wanted to do.

Can I tell you how it changed my life? It’s no longer a secret!

I’m going to be an astronaut. I AM AN ASTRONAUT!

Being an astronaut was a childhood dream of mine. One of three things: Astronaut, Dinosaur bone digger upper, Female Pro Baseball Player. We grow up, though, and we allow our interests and creativity to be stifled (don’t do that! I beg of you!). We allow others to influence the things that truly interest us… and push us away from our calling!

I cannot tell you how EXCITED I am for this next part of the journey! I am going back to school this fall. EVERYTHING is changing, and I am doing my best to keep up. This makes the most sense for me, as I was struggling to really OWN my DMP. When I finished my half-marathon (YAY! GO ME!), I looked at my DMP ready to revise it and thought………………………………………….. now what?

The rest of my DMP then felt like it wasn’t authentic. I felt stuck. I felt as though I had NO direction. I didn’t know what to do. Get quiet. Just…get… QUIET.
And it came to me. I still have the desire to be an astronaut with childlike wonder. I always am staring at the stars, changing wallpapers and backgrounds to include my favorite heavenly bodies…But I realize that being an astronaut is MORE than just going into space. I am currently trying to identify my PURPOSE in space. What am I going to use this for? How will I use my superpowers to help others? Still working on that part! 😀 I renewed  my prescription for rose-colored glasses, because everything IS a miracle!