MKMMA – Week 22a – Out of the Silence, and into The Light

My silence certainly didn’t last long. I allowed many distractions to get in my way. I even cancelled my Monday off of work that I had originally intended, because of my feeling of defeat. Most important, though, I know I’m capable of not checking my phone, and not feeling helpless without a mode of communication. It was a VERY cold weekend, so my first day of being IN NATURE and SURROUNDED ended after three  and a half hours. However, the three and a half hours felt like 1, so when I learned I made it 3.5 – I celebrated!

Disappointed, but anxious for another try. As soon as this weather clears up (thank you, unpredictable Kentucky!), I am excited to follow my original idea of camping for a weekend – just me and nature. I am capable of fending for myself, and am anxious to prove to myself that I can appreciate the silence.

Speaking of that Silence – Fellow WordPress MKMMA’er Wes    ( @WesMasterKey ) posted one of my favorite songs that has gained some popularity with an updated cover by an unlikely band.

Disturbed has another song that is speaking volumes to me at the moment, called The Light.

Please – take some time to really think about these lyrics. Listen to the song. Ignore any preconceived notions you may have about “their genre” of music.

Like an unsung melody
The truth is waiting there for you to find it
It’s not a blight, but a remedy,
A clear reminder of how it began
Deep inside your memory
Turned away as you struggled to find it
You heard the call as you walked away
A voice of calm from within the silence
And for what seemed an eternity
You wait and hoping it would call out again
You heard the shadow beckoning
Then your fears seemed to keep you blinded
You held your guard as you walked away

When you think all is forsaken,
Listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

An unforgivable tragedy
The answer isn’t where you think you’d find it
Prepare yourself for the reckoning
For when your world seems to crumble again
Don’t be afraid, don’t turn away
You’re the one who can redefine it
Don’t let hope become a memory
Let the shadow permeate your mind and
Reveal the thoughts that were tucked away
So that the door can be opened again
Within your darkest memories
Lies the answer if you dare to find it
Don’t let hope become a memory

When you think all is forsaken,
Listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

Sickening, weakening
Don’t let another somber pariah consume your soul
You need strengthening, toughening
It takes an inner dark to rekindle the fire burning in you
Ignite the fire within you

When you think all is forsaken,
Listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

Don’t ignore, listen to me now
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness
Can show you the light

Wow. Yeah? Yeah.


MKMMA Week 22 – Into the Silence (Post 2)


Into Nature – Into the Silence – I go!

The plan is at this moment, undefined. While trying to fall asleep last night, I had this marvelous idea to go CAMPING this weekend. In a tent. By myself. How much more nature-y could I get? However, the paycheck wasn’t enough to cover campground rental as an unexpected expense, so I am just going to go… go and enjoy myself in different nature locations, and come home at night. Not talking to B or my cats is going to be difficult. Sometimes, I just cannot shut up.🙂

Thankfully, there are a few state parks within a 30-minute drive, so my options are many! How many of you will be practicing your silence this weekend? I’m interest to hear how you’re managing your life and work around this. I had to schedule it for 6pm today, when I am off work, through Monday at 1pm. Any suggestions? Helpful hints?

T-minus three hours.

MKMMA – Sunday Thoughts (Week 22)


I had a thought earlier today: I’m missing the forest for the trees.  This is HUGE.

I may have realized that I’m going to be an astronaut, but there’s a very significant part of the journey that needs equal attention and visualization: Becoming a Mechanical Engineer.

I’ve heard horror stories about the program itself, as well as the probability of being employed upon graduation (over-saturated market, etc.) – but I’ve decided Mechanical Engineering is the best fit for me. This will require a lot of math, and a lot of science. I should focus on being an astronaut, yes, but when I’m an amazing contender for astronaut candidacy, I have to be able to look the interviewers in the eyes with confidence in my skills as a Mechanical Engineer.

Please, for the love of all things holy – don’t miss the forest for the trees!


MKMMA – Week 21 – Big!


The Master Key – Part Twenty-One

It is my privilege to enclose Part Twenty-One. In paragraph 7 you will find that one of the secrets of success, one of the methods of organizing victory, one of the accomplishments of the Master Mind is to think big thoughts.

Check, check, annnnnnnnd CHECK! Being an astronaut is a 0.21% chance. You have better luck of winning the lottery than making it through the Astronaut Candidate selection process. This year (2015-2016), NASA set a record for the most submissions ever received (thanks, I’m sure, to Interstellar and The Martian!) at over EIGHTEEN THOUSAND! And that 0.21% chance was out of over 6000 candidates… can’t wait to see the math on over 18,000!

But according to Part Twenty-One… BIG thoughts!


Revisiting this on 02/26/2016

Do you remember a long time ago when we were all concerned with how to respond to seemingly negative criticisms of our dreams? Well, I didn’t share mine with anyone (other than my lovely MKMMA Guide!). Now, I’m kinda glad I didn’t, because it would have sounded silly. But at the same time, I lost out on any support I could have gained from being open and vulnerable with my friends and family. HOWEVER.

My ex-boyfriend/friend/long-time bestie/roommate (it’s complicated, hah) finally told me how he really felt about my pursuit of being an astronaut. He’s worried I’m going to fail. He’s worried I’m too overzealous about something I may not be able to handle. He’s worried I’m choosing to chase yet another dream, just to get bogged down with being “too busy” and get overwhelmed……… and quit.

Forgetting the fact that he’s right about a couple of things (I get overwhelmed sometimes) – the old blueprint would have immediately risen to defense. I am proud of myself and my level of calm and awareness that has developed throughout MKMMA because I just said “Thank you. I love you for being honest with me, and for caring about me and loving me as you do.” He just looked SO RELIEVED. He apparently had been dreading telling me how he felt for over 2 weeks! And here’s the thing with him – he doesn’t talk. Like, ever. He just “doesn’t have anything to say” (his words), no matter how often I beg him to talk to me, with me, or even in my general direction. I meant it when I said “I love that you care about me, and I’m so lucky to have someone who does!” And I wanted to cry.

Often, my way of doing what I’m going to do is “in defiance” of someone. Like I constantly have something to prove to other people. If you don’t support me, that’s cool. But if you tell me I can’t do something, then I choose to prove you wrong… but often lose my gusto because I’m not doing it for the right reasons. That’s why my first bachelor’s degree took forever. I didn’t have any direction, and I was only continuing college in defiance of She-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named. She told me to take a year off between high school and college. Nope. She told me I’d never finish. Nope. She kicked me out when I graduated high school, so why would I do what she suggested or told me to do? Ugh. Anyways. Learning experiences, right?


19. There is no limit to what this law can do for you; dare to believe in your own idea; remember that Nature is plastic to the ideal; think of the ideal as an already accomplished fact.

The Master Key Master Mind Alliance is no fool! I mean, c’mon. Since DAY ONE they have been advising and guiding us to SEE ourselves as we’ve already accomplished these things. OWN IT. Truly take the time to develop it. That friggin’ old blueprint of mine, man, I’ve allowed to hold me back from so many awesome things. Forget the probability of becoming an astronaut… I’m a freaking astronaut, baby! I mean, really! I put up a picture (this one!)  funny.pho.to_astronautof myself as an astronaut here at work. My coworkers (those lovely ladies from my previous blog post) laugh a time or two at it, but they support me no matter WHAT I need to do – if I don’t get to work with them anymore, they completely understand and want to see me succeed in my dream. And I will! I AM an astronaut!🙂

Now, I need to figure out how I’m going to apply astronaut and mechanical engineering superpowers to help others.



MKMMA – Week 20- I can see myself!



I can see myself! Can you see me?


I can FINALLY see myself. It’s as if a huge fog has been lifted. What was I pretending not to know? I was pretending not to know the real me, my real desires, my real hopes and aspirations. I was pretending to hide behind common misconceptions about women and science, and more specifically “She-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named” and my capabilities, or “lack thereof” according to her.  I was pretending not to know that it would kill me if I didn’t at least give this dream its moment in the sun.

Part Twenty of the Master Keys:

3. All great things come through recognition; the scepter of power is consciousness, and thought is its messenger, and this messenger is constantly molding the realities of the invisible world into the conditions and environments of your objective world.

I RECOGNIZE that I am capable. I RECOGNIZE that I thrive in my childhood dream!

14. To become inspired means to get out of the beaten path, out of the rut, because extraordinary results require extraordinary means. When we come into a recognition of the Unity of all things and that the source of all power is within, we tap the source of inspiration. 

31. Paraphrased: In him we live and move and have our being’ You ARE because HE IS!
31. For your exercise this week, go into the Silence and concentrate on the fact that “In him we live and move and have our being” is literally and scientifically exact! That you ARE because He IS, that if He is Omnipresent He must be in you. That if He is all in all you must be in Him! That He is Spirit and you are made in “His image and likeness” and that the only difference between His spirit and your spirit is one of degree, that a part must be the same in kind and quality as the whole. When  you can realize this clearly you will have found the secret of the creative power of thought, you will have found the origin of both good and evil, you will have found the secret of the wonderful power of concentration, you will have found the key to the solution of every problem whether physical, financial, or environmental. 

Whew. What comfort there!

MKMMA – Week 19 – Back to our regularly scheduled programming…




How was your week off? How about Valentine’s? Ya know, “EVERY DAY should be Valentine’s Day…” blah blah blah. haha. How about President’s Day? How does one celebrate President’s Day, anyways?….

Announcing my intentions to the world (Read: Facebook) and telling my coworkers was not nearly as scary as I had imagined. Go figure, it takes more energy to be fearful than to be brave! Cue music by Sara Bareilles…

Brave – Music Video

I cannot tell you HOW FREEING it is to finally FEEL authentic. It is sad that my “first” DMP was so forced… like yeah, I want these things, but do I FEEL they’re real? Nope. The rewrite I’ve got going on right now (write now?) is way better… but that is life! You live, you learn, you GROW! I’m all over the place right now because that song is just so motivating, it makes me want to get up and DANCE! Oh, and sing. And tell others the value of being their authentic selves! So free.

I have to mention, how people can surprise you (!) when you are authentic, as well. I had several friends share resources with me this week regarding NASA, space, and art, and, well… I was (am) so grateful and overwhelmed by the support I receive in shared resources.

Oh my goodness. Yet again, how apropos thou art, Master Keys!

Part Nineteen –
“Fear is a powerful form of thought. It paralyzes the nerve centers, thus affecting the circulation of the blood.

This, in turn, paralyzes the muscular system, so that fear affects the entire being, body, brain and nerve, physical, mental, and muscular.

Of course the way to overcome fear is to become conscious of power. What is this mysterious vital force which we call power? We do not know, but then, neither do we know what electricity is.”

“1. The search for truth is no longer a haphazard adventure, but it is a systematic process, and is logical in its operation. Every kind of experience is given a voice in shaping its decision.”



merida brave